Your writing is beautiful. Thankfully, I wasn't raised to fear God, but I can relate to almpst all of these situations. That feeling of something being 'off' when you're being intimate with a dude was 👌
So, about that God on the wall looking down from the cross. They tell stories about that God. I like the one where he sat by the well and spoke with the Samaratin adultress (a shameful act for any iron age male jew), the one where he had dinner with the tax collector (an enormous political taboo), the one about how the first people he went to after his resurrection were his female disciples (no greek philosopher would expect that), and the time he defended the prostitute from a lynch mob is one of my special favorites.
I imagine, when he said if you even look at a woman lustfully you had already committed adultery in your heart, he was looking sidelong at that pinching boy, and the idiot pastor who let it happen (many American Evangelicals are too politically motivated to truly serve God). When I read about him railing at the religious leaders of his day about "straining a gnat but swallowing a camel," or "washing the outside of the bowl but leaving the inside filthy," and especially "you travel over land and sea to win a single convert, and when you succeed you make him twice the son of hell you are!" I think about idiot pastors like yours when I read that.
My absolute favorite story, though, is the one where, as he was being nailed to the cross, as he was being literally tortured to death, he was praying for the forgiveness of the brutal roman soldiers who were swinging the hammer.
If God is real, and if these stories about his behavior are true, then I cannot imagine him looking down on you from that cross of suffering with anything but infinite love and care.
My favorite name for God is, "this man of sorrows."
Also I was raised Catholic and spent a lot of time at church. My dad's a Christian and we'd go to a different church where the masses were- get thi- about 3 Hours long. The men sat on one side (the right side when you're on the alter facing people), women and kids on the other side. It quickly taught me about bigotry, ignorance, and control.
trying to connect w other writers that i like their writing style etc so wld love to be mutuals?? this is such a beautiful piece of writing 🥲🥲💓💓wld love if u ever want to read my pieces!!!
Your writing is beautiful. Thankfully, I wasn't raised to fear God, but I can relate to almpst all of these situations. That feeling of something being 'off' when you're being intimate with a dude was 👌
So, about that God on the wall looking down from the cross. They tell stories about that God. I like the one where he sat by the well and spoke with the Samaratin adultress (a shameful act for any iron age male jew), the one where he had dinner with the tax collector (an enormous political taboo), the one about how the first people he went to after his resurrection were his female disciples (no greek philosopher would expect that), and the time he defended the prostitute from a lynch mob is one of my special favorites.
I imagine, when he said if you even look at a woman lustfully you had already committed adultery in your heart, he was looking sidelong at that pinching boy, and the idiot pastor who let it happen (many American Evangelicals are too politically motivated to truly serve God). When I read about him railing at the religious leaders of his day about "straining a gnat but swallowing a camel," or "washing the outside of the bowl but leaving the inside filthy," and especially "you travel over land and sea to win a single convert, and when you succeed you make him twice the son of hell you are!" I think about idiot pastors like yours when I read that.
My absolute favorite story, though, is the one where, as he was being nailed to the cross, as he was being literally tortured to death, he was praying for the forgiveness of the brutal roman soldiers who were swinging the hammer.
If God is real, and if these stories about his behavior are true, then I cannot imagine him looking down on you from that cross of suffering with anything but infinite love and care.
My favorite name for God is, "this man of sorrows."
Also I was raised Catholic and spent a lot of time at church. My dad's a Christian and we'd go to a different church where the masses were- get thi- about 3 Hours long. The men sat on one side (the right side when you're on the alter facing people), women and kids on the other side. It quickly taught me about bigotry, ignorance, and control.
Amazingly written. 👏 and happy pride month to you! Were nearing the end of the month but I hope your pride lasts year-round. Great work ☺️👏
So so beautiful writing, this really resonated with me <33
I do not know if there is a god. But I do know that there are women. okayyy screaming the whole time I read this I love you
Whoa this is GOOD
this was too real and also written so beautifully that i'm in awe. love your use of language, so vivid and smooth. happy pride <3
trying to connect w other writers that i like their writing style etc so wld love to be mutuals?? this is such a beautiful piece of writing 🥲🥲💓💓wld love if u ever want to read my pieces!!!
You're gay? (Sad penis sounds) ☹️